Happy Happy Happy

Happiness has not been a gift to me. Although I am still young, I have been battling with depression, self harm, anxiety and have been suicidal for the last three years. All of a sudden, just under a month ago, I realized my symptoms have disappeared. I am 100% content with everything. I don't know if my mental health was a result in me being young and emotionally unstable, but it just went a way on its own. I do believe the main reason it did was because I started eating better and working out more, but it's so weird how it just all of a sudden happened. I'm no longer spending my days in bed. I haven't had a break down for awhile. Everything is just fine, I'm really starting to see how truly amazing life is.

My Take On Young Love

When I say young love, I mean 16-24. When being in a relationship does not mean dedication for life. When there's no stress on finding your forever, and exploring options.
I am heterosexual, so I'm going to describe my ideal relationship with another male.
I want a relationship not where he texts me in the early in the morning to say good morning, or when he calls in the middle of the night to say he loves me. I don't want a bunch of gifts, and I don't need someone to touch me nose to nose and cuddle me wherever we go.
I want someone who will be there for me when I need him, and accept the fact that at moments I'm completely shattered. I need someone to accept that my mental state is not always in order, and most of the time I'm a mess. Someone that allows me to love him, and allows me to feel comfortable at all times. Someone who is not only my lover, but indeed my best friend. Someone who realizes that I like space. Someone who also realizes I would accept him through everything and give him respect, as long as he did that to me too.
I'm not asking for a love story. I'm asking for someone to just unconditionally love me for who I am, and someone who allows me to do the same for them.

Welcoming Myself

Although I presume that nobody will read these words, I will still try my best to keep on posting. Thoughts, memories and ideas at the most. Venting may be included. I like the idea of this; much different than other blog types such as Tumblr, where you have your own dashboard of other peoples pictures. This can just be mine. I'm thinking of it as a virtual journal: open to the curious eye.